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In one word, atomization, a deliberate divide and conquer on humanity, just to mention one of many examples where some of the most poisonous stuff are to be found is on the ooh so trivial and funny TV soap operas, full of subliminal messages and PC which creeps unconsciously under the skin of our youngsters manipulating their minds shaping a new self-censoring compliant easily butthurt snowflake generation.
As the 3 letter agency guy once said, turn off your TV.
In one word, atomization, a deliberate divide and conquer on humanity, just to mention one of many examples where some of the most poisonous stuff are to be found is on the ooh so trivial and funny TV soap operas, full of subliminal messages and PC which creeps unconsciously under the skin of our youngsters manipulating their minds shaping a new self-censoring compliant easily butthurt snowflake generation.
As the 3 letter agency guy once said, turn off your TV.
I think I read Einstein went to a LSD like state of mind when working. A poet on the radio said when he read his poems later on he had no real memory of writting them, he did recognise himself in the style. He also spoke of an ability to go to a place between dreams and awake.
Hitler was suffering from an amphetamine abuse... his doses was so elevated that he was constraint to take near lethal dose of somnifers in order to sleep.
High Hitler: how Nazi drug abuse steered the course of history | Books | The Guardian
There is one common point of all hard drugs users, these ones always lost all their humanity at a certain point, if they have one.
I did pot in 2009-2012 (occasionally), since then my mind has gone from a very creative and logical one to being barely able to understand how a circuit works and having trouble understanding anything at all. It started gradually and worsened every year since then.
I'm also on medication now and I can confirm that even "soft drugs" such as pot will significantly alter (for the worse) your entire mental state and will cause brain damage.
I now have the exact same symptoms of mild early onset dementia. If I wasn't on medication and on a strict gluten-free diet I would too be a raving lunatic with extreme paranoid delusions, short term memory loss, inability to comprehend or understand even the most basic of things, and illogical thoughts.
Thankfully the doctors haven't diagnosed me with schitzophrenia. I actually just recently got checked for that. But the symptoms of hyper aggressiveness and paranoid delusions and even hallucinations were present for at least 5 years until I realised that I was gluten intolerant.
A few hours after eating dinner at about 10pm I was every night walking up to my mother and loudly accusing her and others of plotting things against me and I was very verbally aggressive. My mind was racing with violent thoughts and it was extremely stressful on myself to say the least. I had nightmares at night which would make your soul think it was in hell. Imagery that was full of blood and disgusting and revolting situations which made me wake up in terror every night, screaming. Even horror movies would make light of what I experienced for 5 years.
Thankfully since 2015, being on the gluten free diet I am sane again but the inability to understand things persists. But I still stay on the Lexapro and Seroquel to deal with stress and depression and I am currently discussing going back on a TCA anti-depressant because I've had good success in the past with it lifting my depression but I had to come off of it, but now that I'm on Seroquel I no longer have any sexual side effects so I can try any anti-depressant that I want.
If you listen to people who smoke pot they will tell you that its harmless and that (nobody has died from pot). But hand on heart I can tell you that it will trigger other medical or mental diseases which may inadvertently cause death.
And who knows maybe someone slipped some other drug (or chemical) into my pot, when you buy it you have no idea who made it. They do put cat **** onto the plants for fertilizer and that alone can cause massive brain damage from parasites entering your brain and burrowing a hole in it.
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Good to hear you are feeling a whole lot better. Doctors still usually aren't trained to look for food allergies for symptoms like you described. And of course, everybody is different and people sometimes have unusual reactions to different things.
One thing I would like to ask you about. Allergies can come and go at various stages of life. Would you be willing to say roughly what age range the gluten sensitivity issues started?
I'm 33 now. So in 2009 I was 25.
The major symptoms appeared after I did pot in 2009 then got even worse in 2012, I remember this only because I bought an iPhone 3GS before I did pot and I've looked up on wikipedia that the 3GS was released internationally in July-August of 2009. My behavior didn't change until after I did pot. The only thing that stopped the behavior was medication (at first) and then starting a gluten-free diet. There was a period of about 1 year (2014-2015) where I was on heavy intake of seroquel but was still on a gluten-containing diet.
I should also note that before doing pot my long term memory was outstanding but now its just... gone.
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It seems to be ubiquitous now, I'm glad it wasn't around when I was smoking, good on you for stopping 🙂
I never really started tbh. I did it maybe 4-5 times during 2009-2012. Then boom, mental wreck.
Thank buddha for the gluten-free craze going on right now, without that I'm sure I would probably be in prison by now. Coming from a completely crime-free family and living in a crime-free area my entire life, that would've probably ended my life. Or made sure that I was in a straight jacket for the rest of my life.
So a gluten-free diet saved my life. So nuts to anyone who tells you that weed is safe.
And I cannot play any violent video games anymore, or many video games for that matter, with what I've been through mentally I don't want to cause any harm to anyone or anything anymore even if its a fictional character. The very thought makes me feel sick. The experience has truly shaped my mind in many ways. I can understand playing golf though and designing a DAC (for my own personal use) by copying other peoples schematics. But thats about it.
And thanks everyone for your kind words.
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A lot of people smoke pot without those unfortunate effects. In fact we evolved with weed; most of us have cannibinoid receptors in our brains. Pot also has significant medicinal effects too; including for brain pathologies like epilepsy and PTSD.
"Brain damage" implies physical trauma. Pot does not do this. Alcohol can do it if you drink enough. But some people have very adverse reactions to pot; my schizophrenic colleague cannot even stand second hand smoke. It will set him off in a big way.
Our brains are very plastic. The mechanisms that provide cognition and awareness change all the time with stimulus. Both pot and the experiences that cause PTSD do this. Even going on vacation changes it up in a positive way. Many mental, emotional, and psychological pathologies are nothing more than this.
Not all brains are identical either. Some people have different "wiring" that affects their cognition and perception. Some of these people are geniuses and have extraordinary gifts like incredible memories or amazing math skills. The guy that memorized pi to tens of thousands of places has a common brain pathology (I forget what) and he is able to deal with it and also benefit from extraordinary memory.
"Brain damage" implies physical trauma. Pot does not do this. Alcohol can do it if you drink enough. But some people have very adverse reactions to pot; my schizophrenic colleague cannot even stand second hand smoke. It will set him off in a big way.
Our brains are very plastic. The mechanisms that provide cognition and awareness change all the time with stimulus. Both pot and the experiences that cause PTSD do this. Even going on vacation changes it up in a positive way. Many mental, emotional, and psychological pathologies are nothing more than this.
Not all brains are identical either. Some people have different "wiring" that affects their cognition and perception. Some of these people are geniuses and have extraordinary gifts like incredible memories or amazing math skills. The guy that memorized pi to tens of thousands of places has a common brain pathology (I forget what) and he is able to deal with it and also benefit from extraordinary memory.
I usually start dreaming shortly before I fall asleep.
Normally takes me 20 to 30 minutes to fall asleep and when my thoughts drift into the ludicrous and impossible I know I'll be fast asleep very soon unless I start guiding my thoughts consciously.
Smoked 4-5 times over a three year period, and "then boom, mental wreck"?!
And then ever since you're still getting worse, after not even using any?!
Sure, blame the weed.
I haven't read a single page of this thread, but please take note..
Ad hominem is easy, assumption is easy, and "America" as a euphemism or even literal is difficult to defend when so many dumb things occur daily.. the world over.
Human nature will consistently devolve in the absence of actual experience.
History will look both fondly and with spite upon the internet age, as it enabled any idea to occur once uttered. The unfortunate tragedy is there is simply no context to look down on it by ignoring the thing itself.
Ad hominem is easy, assumption is easy, and "America" as a euphemism or even literal is difficult to defend when so many dumb things occur daily.. the world over.
Human nature will consistently devolve in the absence of actual experience.
History will look both fondly and with spite upon the internet age, as it enabled any idea to occur once uttered. The unfortunate tragedy is there is simply no context to look down on it by ignoring the thing itself.
Why do you think I tried it a 2nd and 3rd and 4th time? I didn't blame the weed then infact I thought it was harmless right up to the 4th or 5th time. Then after that time, I damn well blamed the weed.
Also I wasn't on any other drugs or drinking alcohol. Except tobacco. I guess that could've caused it.
The truth is, I don't know for sure. Now I'm a dumb ****. But I didn't start going completely crazy and losing my mind until I tried it that 4th time and I was perfectly fine with tobacco the whole time, only reason why I quit tobacco was because of it clouding my mind.
I also went to the ER for heart palpitations several times over a period of months due to doing pot just once that year in 2012. But I was fine before that.
As I've said, I'm not sure. And I'm not getting worse. I'm stable right now.
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You'll have to forgive me for being an old fuddy duddy and not continuing to engage with someone who can casually spill his entire mental health history in a forum he joined just this month. Maybe it's the younger generation that doesn't seem to have the same boundaries as older people?
I just wanted to call shenanigans on blaming the weed. You might as well blame a banana for the sugar it has.
I just wanted to call shenanigans on blaming the weed. You might as well blame a banana for the sugar it has.
Meh I just don't care really. Sharing is caring.
And fair enough. But opinions and first hand experience are two different things. Go ahead and glorify weed but until you've been through what I've been through you wouldn't wish it on anybody even if the number of schizophrenics out there are only like 1% of the population those people will have a really bad life after trying pot even just once. And I was what you would call a completely normal person before trying it and my entire family has tried it before and had no ill effects, it was just me. there was no warning and no way of telling how it would've affected me beforehand.
Sorry for trying to warn people.
Having suddenly found myself replying to this thread, I would only advocate that personal chemistry isn't something to be trifled with, except most (all?) people doing it cannot appreciate where they are within a given pain. Schizophrenia being what it is (a severe case of neuro-chemical imbalance), sometimes pharmaceutical drugs add to some level of productivity. As a somewhat 'organic' person myself, I personally advocate age, awareness, diet and the tough road of learning what will ultimately enable a person to achieve some level of balance. Some or most people even, will begin to experience that particular pathology early in life, during an age where self-treat where illicit drugs offer a different/disconnected road, but ultimately will fail to resolve an inherent issue. In short... yep, find your cycle, your lows and highs, happiness and misery. But do take notes regarding when and where you felt most secure and seek to foster that. Hopefully it's sober, because happiness is an innate human trait worth discovering within each person.
Actually, I know someone who uses medical marijuana (and has a prescription for it). He gets it at co-op place and they have user ratings of different strains. Some are actually rated as having strong paranoia and anxiety effects, and those strains are usually the ones that are described providing energy. Other strains are rated as good for relaxation and sleep, and very low for paranoia and anxiety. My point is that different people's experience with the drug may be different for multiple reasons.
It is true that starting to use it at an early age is correlated with early onset of schizophrenia. Although there are suspicions as to why that is, it could be that people at an early onset stage of schizophrenia may get more of a pleasant experience from the drug than average users. At this point no one really knows.
Also, there are a few conditions similar to schizophrenia, but that are milder. In addition, sometimes there are multiple pathologies going on, and it is possible for food allergies to cause very unusual symptoms in rare cases.
It is true that starting to use it at an early age is correlated with early onset of schizophrenia. Although there are suspicions as to why that is, it could be that people at an early onset stage of schizophrenia may get more of a pleasant experience from the drug than average users. At this point no one really knows.
Also, there are a few conditions similar to schizophrenia, but that are milder. In addition, sometimes there are multiple pathologies going on, and it is possible for food allergies to cause very unusual symptoms in rare cases.
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